I suck

I don't know what's wrong with me. I never fail to screw up at work, especially on the highly critical stuffs, and Susan will have to call me in the middle of the night from Chicago, apologise for waking me up, and ask me questions I don't have the answers to. Then I'll pull the covers back over my head (if i get any sleep at all), and unleash a mighty mental tirade on myself for being such a stupid craphead for bumbling through important tasks. This is already the 3rd time around. I won't be surprised if they decide to give me the boot....or peel off my bonus....T_T

How the hell did I end up in such a highly strung environment like this. Didin't I join ACS in Motorola for a comfy support job? The things they keep from you just to string in someone for the dirty job. Ugh. But i'm not really complaining. THere ARE perks, like working from home and the flexi-hours I keep. It's just that... when things get hot and heavy during the Go-Live stage, I find my brain slowly unravelling under the stress and the constant need to be alert 24 hours. And I finally understand why I can't stand timed game sequences in my RPGs. It's an after-effect of my job.

I'm having this massive food-poisoning today and I still drag myself to work. Was worried that my boss will fuss if I fail to show my face in the office too often. I'm just glad that I'm not puking and stuff right now. Must be something I cooked yesterday. Keat had slight stomach discomfort too but nothing more, while I tossed and turned most of last night due to the pain. Way to go Ju! You managed to poison yourself with your own cooking! This is so like Akane in Ranma. People die when they catch a whiff of her cooking. How awesome is that?!

So yeah, still waiting for Shin to show me the new ROMB layout. But would you actually believe me if I told you that I dreamt of the layout yesterday? And it was awesome, by the way. Kinda very hi-tech like with semi-transparent layers and nifty animated menus. Can't remember if I was happy with it in my dream, but I do remember that the layout was pretty creative and space-saving, cuz Shin and I was having some problems with the ever-growing menus and the annoyingly long page which require much vertical scrolling. Meh. It's high time we put up a new layout.

I'm kinda puzzling over the new page, on how the dialogues should be. I hate how sometimes stories have multiple POV (point of views) in a single scene. Gets really inconsistent and confusing. And I think Matt deserves at least one splashpage. Chapter 7 it will be. Him and Jem, maybe, cuz he's such a retard around her. And I wonder if there are really relationships like that; where the semi-masochistic guy is attracted to the cold unfeeling bitch. And the more she hurts and dominates him, the more he feels attached to her. Not saying that it will end badly, because people tend to leech off each other anyhows. Interesting, ne.

And a Gackt pic to start your day. Ain't he beautiful?